Forty-nine

I keep coming here and staring at this page called Forty-nine. Sometimes I write a bit and then delete it all, because I am stuck in a who-needs-to-hear-from-me phase. I mean, really?? No one needs to hear from me. I started this blog though, because I needed to here from me. It didn’t matter who else did. But I feel out-of-steam for that recently, too. Not sure why?

But I cannot even count on two hands the number of people who have told me that they feel convicted to write their story; a recent conviction. I think we all need to listen to people’s stories. Stories are hard to tell, and when (if) someone summons the courage to tell their story, it needs listened to. My favorite books to read are memoirs, because they are very often raw and completely honest and sometimes scary!! But if someone is brave enough to o tell their story, I am going to be willing to listen!

Each one of us comes with a story printed on our soul; a story that will tell us all that is necessary to live the life we were created to live, to lead us on the road we are to walk. And, if we can manage that task of walking there…well, really, simply locating that road is often a challenge of its own….life is a glorious mix of beautiful and hard and rewarding and scary.

It is necessary to understand that my best life isn’t going to be all sunshine and daisies. It needs the hard and sad to drive us into the heart of Christ. I know that when things are going smoothly, it is easy to turn on the cruise control and coast. But when things are intense, like the possible diagnosis, the loss of someone important, the scream-because-your’e-mad thing, roots grow so very deep. Tendrils go wriggling out, searching for nourishment.

COVID-19 was a God-given present to all of us; time off to find our way in a too-busy world. He gave us time-a-plenty for the task of finding what was lost. And if you found something you thought was gone, share it. Because so often, our lost is found so that we can rescue someone else in their lost.

I am addicted to a TV show that I am watching on Hulu. The show is one that I recall many talking about when they were watching it weekly through its seasons: This Is Us. I honestly believe every person alive could benefit from watching the seasons. It seems to still be filming? I am currently on season 3. It is safe to say that there is at least one character built into this show that every single person could relate to. Confession: I have sobbed through way more episodes that I have not sobbed through. One of the actresses, Chrissy Metz, is my person. She wrote a memoir that I have ordered and am waiting for. Now, she doesn’t always act like I would, or say what I would, but she’s living life in a super-sized body, and she is doing it with such grace and poise. I actually have a different character almost each episode that steals my heart temporarily!! I truly have never found a show that is so captivating.

My quiet time yesterday and today found me in the book of Ecclesiastes. So many quotable verses in those 12 chapters:

  • There is nothing better for a person than that he should eat and drink and find enjoyment in his toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God, for apart from Him who can have enjoyment? (2:24-25)
  • He has a made everything beautiful in its time…(3:11a)
  • I perceived that there is nothing better for man than to be joyful and to do good as long as he lives (3:12)
  • Two is better than one (4:9); a threefold cord is not quickly broken (4:12b)

And my personal fav: Walk in the ways of your heart and the sight of your eyes. But know that for all these things, God will bring you into judgment. (11:9) God gives us permission to make the choices that give us enjoyment in life, but we need to always remember that there will be a day of accountability for our choices. Choose wisely!

Thursday I am going to my 5 year old grandson’s graduation from preschool. He will start kindergarten in the fall. Hard to believe it has been 5 1/2 years since he was born!!

Until next time,

Debi

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