Wow, my first day at a commitment to jump on here daily and post. Today started out as a forgetful day all around as I also forgot to create a month marker for Instagram? So I quickly made a digital one. The excitement of only 1 more hot month, maybe 1 1/2, was an exciting concept!
I started the index card project I mentioned yesterday. I got the cardboard cover pages hooked together with 2 rings I had in the drawer. They won’t be big enough for very long, so I will have to think harder once it fills. The index cards I am working with are 5×7, 4×6 and 3×5. Mix and match. Creativity is what I am searching for!
The verse that I grabbed as a point of focus for today is this:
The version that says this like I want it said is The Message. My heart wants a SHOW of God’s amazing love. Sometimes it will need to be a gentle exhibit; but more often than not, POWER will be needed for this stubborn soul to grasp it all. In the end I will be back on my feet.
So my day was more good than bad, but certainly not what I wanted it to be. But here are some victories.
- no eating out
- great thought
- no meat
- no overeating
- grapes for breakfast
Not so proud moments:
- ate cheese, but mainly to get it finished and gone
- too much fat (cheese, Earth Balance)
- poor nutrition in my random choices
I am learning to recognize binge eating as it is roaring up from behind me. It seems to exist on the heels of getting too hungry. I honestly do not think to eat until it is too late. I need to think of a way to fix that. This is one of those areas where I wish I had a community that was abundant in hard-proven knowledge.
I want to start setting some boundaries and considering them like rules that cannot be broken. I have prayed over this first one a lot, and I believe it is not only necessary, but a good test of my willingness to be obedient. I need a daily (hourly) opportunity to remind myself that God is in me and over me. So tomorrow I will begin to be sugar free. 100%. I have thought about allowing stevia for at least a bit, but I decided against it. I can already taste the Golden Milk that I drink each morning?? I forgot to add the tablespoon of Maple syrup one morning and it was sooo not-good.
But I have a plan. I will keep you posted.